My christmas?

Christmas...sad christmas lonely christmas...
I was having flu during christmas eve then dun have ppl date me out...staying at home emo alone...Damn, i never thought that i will be alone passed thru my christmas eve..
so disappointed.
Since it happen, i already plan to going out on the next coming new year eve
to prevent i will celebrate alone again

it was a bad christmas
Flu and headache during christmas eve
and then woke up next day
which is christmas
i have fever, sore throat, dizzy, headache and flu of course
Dun have energy to stand up cos feel like out of energy and too hungry
btw, dizzy and headache also make me cant stand up...
keep lying on the bed...
waiting for miracles...

Santa, i was hope that u brg me luck...
but
Y sick on tis day?
but didnt blame u...
cos i am not a good teenager
torture myself whole year
and i nvr believe that santa is actually exist
cos its more like a fairytale
but i reali hope that u exist
cos u brg hope to people

hungry but cant stand up...
so keep sleeping to fight against the hunger...
jus drinking liquid whole day
i am so damn hungry~

some1 help me...
but luckily, there'r many peoples actually care about me
call me text me...
thx 北极翔, welson, iven, ken, derrick, andy, 玮...

thx for the merry xmas text
Elmund, alex, arron, andy, nicholas, erick, yijun, yefei,barry yeap

Merry christmas to u all..
It was a memorable christmas for me...T.T

Merry Christmas (Christmas tree, santa and me)

Its a greeting season just around the corner...
Usually oversea such as US or UK.
The Christmas tree is setting up one month before Christmas which means that the greeting season is not far from now and the Shopping time is come.
The sales of christmas tree oversea (real) is increasing since the tree is important for Christmas
Unfortunately, the biggest export chritmas tree country had recorded the least harvested of tree.
Therefore, the prices raise higher.

Christmas may sound like nothing for us because it is christians' new year
but i feel like its important for me
there's only 1 way to let me feel the season is here by watching the decoration in the shopping center and christmas song repeated in shopping center and from radio.
maybe i am still childish,
i hope for Santa Claus to pay me a visit
Its the hope of the children right? not jus me
Although i am not a child now
Watching glee thinking of Santa
He reali give hopes to children and teenagers
The santa is counseling the lost and helpless people

Such an unlucky day today
Hp spoil
Wan buy thing but not enough money
Own people money again...
upset with this kind of life!!!

Santa would u come?
i need gifts.
I am so greedy
but there's only 1 wish i really hope of
which is All My Friends will be healthy and wealthy in next year
Miracles needed for somebody
hope myself getting better and better

The favorite chritmas song is last christmas.
The most memorable song are Jingle Bell, we wish u a merry christmas
Because it still sound sweet and warm when listen to this song
Love All i wan for Christmas is u...

i love christmas tree
i love Santa
i Love Christmas!!!
Hohoho...Merry Christmas...

爱很难

爱情
需要两个人的信任
爱情
需要两个人的坚持
爱情
是场游戏
总有输家和伤害
让我们即期待又怕受伤害

为什么
为什么总是我以为没事了
而又有问题出现？
为什么问题不断出现
我的信心
一点一点被消削弱
剩下的只是无谓的坚持
得到的是无谓的爱情
继续的是没灵魂的感情

继续吗？
还是放弃？
我不会在部落格写我的感情事
因为
我没公开的打算和资格

你
我真的很期待
但是每当我真的很期待很想的时候
你的冷水往我脸上泼
而我的想法一瞬间
从想见面到想分手
我不喜欢吵架
更不喜欢烦厌的感情生活

我想说我在乎你
可是有你说没有我说
我累了...
想停止吗？
不,因为我还爱你...

“The Season of the Witch is Here”

When we talk about Witches...
what's on ur mind?
evil? Spell?Magic? or crystal ball? or flying broom?

well, i am afraid of witches...
why? because...
They able to read spell to control everything...
Their power is undetectable~
and the power and strength getting higher with their experience and age~
2ndly, we cant actually differentiate them physically cos they r as normal as human.
3rdly, we cant differentiate whether the witches are good or evil...
i dream of them be4 when i was stress...
chasing me, keep attack me with green shinning toxic...
one way to get rid of it, wake up from the sleep...

One day outing At penang Island...

Planning going out at night but suddenly change to morning...
Sweat, worrying whether can i wake up as i slept at 5.30am last night
i made it, i can wake up on time.
1st, they went to Jusco Bandar Perda to get something
i wait in the car and then i saw a family eating Mcd, then i have the desire to eat
i walk in there to get the breakfast meal to take away
god damn sissy mcD worker, saying english with his sissy tongue, i cant understand at all
so i decided dun wan listen to wat he said, jus order, whatever he said i will asnwer yes...
the bill is RM8.35 damn u, not 4.50 for breakfast...*Angry*

going to 1st avenue (new shopping center i havent been there before)
grand but empty, because it is still new.
Going to sing k (redbox)
we jus queue up like that without kn0wing that the line is for rm1 singk promotion...
then we move to the counter there...
Sing k til 2pm...
well, because we r celebrating li chuen's birthday so mostly of the song is for her 1...
Fish, JJ, Leehom, Jolin and Jay chou.
Crazy in there, singing, shouting...

2pm, move out from redbox, walking around in 1st avenue.
surveying the price of the mask in 1st avenue and watson...
my friend went to Sasa bought eyebrown pen for his mum and then move to parkson there
cos he want buy perfume for his mum as bithday gift.
Gucci flora then rush 2...Smelling those perfume...fainted la...
Then wanna consider somemore, so we decided to go to gurney there to shop.

Gurney, here i come...><><><

Toy Toy Adventure

Secret recipe
going to secret recipe to rest ourselves cos walking whole day.
we r tired~
ordering 4 cakes, and then the last cake which is purposely dedicate for LiChuen
with candle...Chocolate indulgence~
singing happybirthday to her...then starting eat the cakes...

She's making wishes...

High Tea...

My friend wan to buy prada perfume (Finally he decided)
Walk bec to carpark then go ATM machine get money direct go into the prada counter to buy that set.
Trying over and over again jus to test the smell...
*Blushes* full of smell...my nose is sensitive now...

Walking towards the center stage of gurney, watching the show..
singing, all i want for christmas is u...i saw a monkey, snake then toy toy, butterfly and...a i dunno what, my friend said, it look like a spinning mushroom (Laughing)
but so fast, the performance end...
The photo session is start soon..
we r hesitating because 99% of the people r children, we are the only teenager..><>< movie later? no...already 6 smth...
we want to Straits Quay, we dunno the exact location, my friend said he only knw behind the island plaza...(i was wondering, wer is island plaza..haha)
Wao, is it a shopping center? no..it look like a building with alot of shoplot but definitely not shopping center...
The main entrance got a SAD Fountain... and a tall Christmas Tree.

With many small gifts and candy decoration...

Finishing taking picture

walk into the building...It was pretty cos its new...

walking and window shopping...And then late d...hungry...
my friend fetch us go somewer near by 1st avenue to eat famous Hokkien Mee..><>

I am TIRED!!!!!

That mee which i take away from penang island was yer....not tasty....
Happy but tired....

我喜欢的...my favorite

The album that i like recently...
LOuD from Rihanna...

Debut in bilboard no3, 6 then 10 in this week...
2 no 1 single which are only girl in the world and what's my name...
S&M no 53, Who's that chick no 73...
There's still a few songs that i like which is California king bed, love the way u lie part 2 and so on...
i wish i can get this album...><
I have a little comment about her hair...
y red?...And the AMA performance was stunning but i still hate her hair...><


Taylor swift~ last year artist of the year in grammy award...
nice hair, i like her straight hair...
although i dun think she can performance well in live show but her album is awesome
Mine was ok, i love innocent and back to december...
Back to december got a full sentence of lyric which is long and good...
"So this is me swallowing my pride standing in front of you saying i'm sorry for that night"
Still that good...i love this album~


The band perry, new country group...
This is their EP album
i love the song- if i die young
the song is great, the vocal was comfortable, the lyric is inspired...
love 'lord make me a rainbow i shine down on my mother'

The drama series that i like...

Fringe, now come to season 3...
the story is about an parallel universe fighting each other to protect themselves from devastation. Agent Dunham has the ability to across both world.
Its about the scientist Walter Bishop and his son Peter Bishop and agent Dunham and also Fringe division department...Lots of scientific term and scene but very interesting~


Glee cast- season 2...
Still remember the 1st episode sang Empire State of Mind, Billionaire and so on...
Nice, singing new songs in new season. Glee cast almost break the record- most song enter billboard...so far 80+ songs have already enter the ranking...
school life, gay life in School, love problems, problems between group members...
love the performance like Singing in the rain/umbrella, teenage dream, billionaire, lucky and so on....


Vampire diaries, come to season 2 this year.
Damn nice, vampire,werewolf,human, witches and so on...interesting story and character.
i like Damon&Stefan, Bonnie the witch, Katherine the vampire.
Still waiting for episode 11...
cant wait for this...>< Stefan is so handsome, Elena is pretty...><

Holidays...发生的事,想的事...做的事

i think i should quit using my broken english...
i will use chinese in this post~

最近过得怎样?
不错咯...(自问自答)
假期嘛！没想那么多...
可是其实我渐渐担心接下来的日子...
下学期,还会不会那么幸运呢？(sad)
回想下,这个学期真的很侥幸咯
祈祷的,希望的都成真了...(偷笑中)

这个假期我不想工作
可是又没钱...
好像很对不起家人啊！(haiz)
我这么好吃懒做
可是我读书真的好累哦
应该好好休息的...(好像是借口T.T)

我的弟弟要生日了
我不能下KL陪他过
很抱歉啊...
其实我也想下去的
毕竟是时候买新年衣了嘛...
可是...钱啊钱！为什么你总是个问题？

最近啊...
facebook满满是美少男跳楼自杀的新闻
我一直没回应
其实我觉得很烦厌!
没完没了的新闻
没完没了的post
不是我不尊重他,而是我觉得不需要那么多人知道
我觉得他也不想搞到那么大件事的
我佩服他的勇气,可是我不欣赏他!
自杀是折磨自己又折磨别人的死法...
家人是多莫的伤心啊.
如果我是他家人,我也很难不讨厌不怨恨那个女生吧
虽然他再三吩咐不要恨那女生~
安息吧!R.I.P

发现到啊
如果一个人没向家人说过我爱你这三个字
而突然说了
不是兴奋过度就是想寻死了...

以前我也是也
整天担心有的没的...
你知道我担心什么吗？
2012,学业,健康,家人
尤其是我妹妹啊！
竟然中了PLKN...
我希望她平安无事的回来咯！
haiz...

假期
我很兴奋的说
我会驾车了
我驾到槟岛了
对我来说是不可能的任务哦！
看了NArnia3...


我觉得不错啊！哈哈
男主角还是那样帅...><
主题曲好好听啊！


我竟然没什么想看戏
对食物也没什么兴趣了...
我怎么这样了...
槟城也！
不懂...我知道...我变了！

passed another two subjects...>< and DIDI

passed another two subjects which are high possibility get A
this make me happy~
Public Speaking, i am so fast in presenting my speech...
my friends were stun cos i am doin too fast><

But now, left two papers, i lazy to study la...
feel sleepy everyday~

ytd, celebrated my gor's birthday...
the card was a mess, 1 hr b4 celebration only finish it...
HUuuuuuu, relief when i'm done...><

thats all from me~

well, another news
add 1 more didi...
now got 6 didi...
love them so much haha...
give me an opportunity to learn how to take care of ppl
how to communicate with different kind of ppl...><

1 of my didi was hide me from smth i should knw~
but luckily, when i ask do u hide smth from me, he direct answer yes and told me
i was like, hmm...so honest, so he wont be a bad guy so brothership on...><
dun lie to me

and lastly, again i wanna scold that mother fucker slut from destroying my reputation...
u r slut not me...so stop talking bout me..hope u die SOON..><
sorry for acting so rude, cos i am MAD!!!

kinda disappointed again....

after birthday then got presentation and final cooking test...
passed my birthday with a great nervous~
u knw wat i wish during my birthday
i wish i could pass the final cooking test and it became true...

i pass the toughest practical ever
i cook nonstop, although i didnt answer the question at all...
but i did finish cooking and serve on time...
and when lecturer called my name and said congratulation, u have a good product...
i would like to eat it later...happy but tired...it's worth
i would like to thanks pamela for helping me...

after 2 papers...
1st paper, cooking test, i didnt sleep for a nite because i drink 2 cups of coffee but luckily i can study all before entering the exam hall...
Food microbe also the same...
i tot i cant finish d, and i almost cry of it, i blame myself for distracted, i blame myself for too relax, i blame myself for keep console myself that still got time....
the day before real exam, again, didnt sleep with 1 cup of coffee...
i managed to finish study but the paper was...hmm...not difficult, i can do but dunno correct or not...i hate u Clostridum herbarum, salmonella serovars, desulfotomaculum nigricans, clostridum thermosaccharotyculum, Bacillus Stearothermophillus...too many microbes' name have to memorize, blank brain with jus a few names...hopefully can score well...
aim A for this subject. if end up with B+ i will hopeless in get 3.85 d...T.T

good luck to myself...

Birthday 6/11

my birthday was fun...
went to kuantan (1 day trip), although just 1 day but i am having fun~
thx for my gor and my best friends that planned for me...

u all surprise me alot...
especially housemates...^^
thx~ thx for the cake and foods...

my best friends (jason, charice, yf, hong, jun, eric ,kimki and so on)
i love that video so so so much...but my mother that part make me touched and almost cry~
this is the 1st time i leave home for 2.5 months...
i miss them!!!

thx for my coursemates, surprise me also~

i love u all...
i appreciate u all cos u all give me strength to keep study at here...
if not, i already collapse.

Friends are important for me...Love u all



u all the best...

Pass through...

Passing through harsh time and now i am energetic...
feel passion in study~

When u face something that u fail become and if u succeed u will make u feel like you are GOOD enough~ My confidence bec!!!
Thx for everything
i knw i am busy and hot temper sometimes.

dun say u miss me
because when i think about u
its full of hatred~
u nvr feel sympathy when u scolded me
but now y u say miss me?
screw u~
pissed off

Final coming soon...
birthday also coming soon
not really into the mood.

i have the intuition that this semester i still can maintain my result~
but maybe jus drop abit~
but its good enough for me

GOOD luck for every1...^^

After all this...

Actually since the beginning of this semester, i have been told by my direct senior that ur result surely or definitely will be drop. Thus, it's very hurt and harsh for me as i care about my study so much.

Surprisingly, i told by my course mates that i got the highest mark in a test...
I was...nothing to say jus stunned~ how can it possible?
i didnt put any effort because i nvr be no 1...
But soon...I feel stress as i cannot drop during second test~
haiz...i think i would preferable to be second or third...

I screwed my speech today...
sad, i was presenting and i am actually facing my dearest lecturer, but she seems not understand my informative speech~Gosh, and then i started feel stress and nervous as i think of deduction of marks...
But luckily, when we get to know the mark, i get alot of 4 out of 5..
but exactly mark i dunno~ still worry~

Next week,war begin. actually is 4 tests but my dearest lecturer postpone 1 of the test to 29/10 another test postpone to unknown date...now left 2 tests~
And then, there's hope i feel~ and study finally...
rushing finish all the lab report, quizes and so on...
leaving myself with assignment and final...

my birthday is just around the corner but yet...
i still dunno whether can go bec or not (i really wanna go bec to my family, way too stress here)...

Hopefully i can announce that this sem has been officially finish but not yet...

There's hope when there's people...^^ waiting for miracles...

after two days...

After that incidents, so fast continue study...
kinda stress, have to face him again~
He's a monster for me, i have phobia...

Thx for every1 who care about me.
Benny, Benson, Barry, eric and siang ying, jac who text me show their caring.
Eric, yefei, KL, Qiao, Jac, Shyling, Yijun, Tzehong...
I was so surprise that Yijun knw me quite well..
He said even though i share all the things but there's still keep something in my mind and my heart~
He told me, not to hide it, throw it out~
Dun suffer yourself

Well, i listen it as an advice but can i really do it..?
Not pretty sure~

KarLeong said, we are one big family...
well, we showed our caring start from this semester...
but is it endless? or stop after we graduate?
such weird thinking playing in my mind...

That day at seaside, i was thinking about changing course, regretted of didnt change the course when i can, should i quit study? or change to another course which need not to cook anymore? should i tell my mum? y no1 beside me?

Should face my life all by myself~do all the things all by myself...
live all by myself~

i jus being too SAD and DisAppoitted...

i will alwaz remember today 8 of Oct
as The incidents that make me collapse happened...

it was the third recipe testing...
i am quite stress and pressure as i ask for perfection but i failed for the 1st and 2nd testing...i was unhappy!
futhermore, recently many tests is queue up~ lab reports, assignment, speeches have to do...Stress until my upper limit~

Yes, we make it during the third recipe testing!!!
but yet, mark havent given, lecturer scolding us...
u knw what makes me sad?
he said: u all will screwed up ur degree, if wan to waste ur time better start study from diploma! i mind about this because so far i did quite ok and maybe i was doubting my ability in study and some sort of things but i am doing so well in my study! Trying all my best to get the highest grade ever. But, because of that sentence...Giving me a shock mentally!!! collapse, crying...dying!
pretend not to sad anymore later.

some peoples are not reliable~ Thats y i only trust myself, and that makes me stress~
i have to do all the things all my myself.
i am destined to be a single walker and also still giving up easily

i am surprise that many peoples actually care about me.
thx for yefei, eric, tzehong, Qiao, Mr.Lee, Pamela, Siang ying and so on.

There r two types of people in this world, 1st, being afraid and not to face the problems and stress, 2nd types, facing it like nothing happen but improve the performance later...
These long period, i am being 1st types but this time i cant run away the stress as they need me, my result rely on myself, therefore i would like to take over the case and improve my marks!
Surprisingly i am 2nd types of people in this world

If u ask me, after cried, still feel sad and stress?
my answer will be yes, and i am just pretending nothing happen cos people dunno how i stress and how it affect my life. I guess i need a psychologist~

Endless tired

Endless tired
i am so so tired...
becos of work and worrying something in the future
such as next sem,wat grade can i get,wat work will i get in get future~

Dun ever look down at me,becos my power is unlimited...
i can do watever i wan...
i wanna be a successful nutritionist...

Fight for my future...

戴愛玲 Princess Ai【跳痛】完整版MV

好听！

跳tone的跳痛

五月份进入尾声
也许是工作越来越繁忙
或越来越接近开学的日子
心情总是很down

跳痛这首歌
影响我一整个月的心情

整天梦到不该梦的人
很累啊

六月还是要加油

有一件事一直没有做
我希望开学前能将它解决！！

五月份...^^

踏入五月份
事件果然飞逝
转眼...假期过了一个月

就快要开工了
累啊！
其实很不想工作
因为假期就该假期...

但是算了吧！工作吧！
要不然哪来的钱？

加油！！！

在家没得上网
闷死了...T.T

Olivia - I Feel the Earth Move (Carole King)

i love this performance...i've repeat listen to this song for n times...i love it...

KL最终章

KL行最终章
明天就要告别花花世界KL了
坦白说之前还不想来
现在不想回
因为比起在家里
这边的生活精彩很多

这次没有逛街
没有买东西
可是认识了不少好朋友
例如mable Jang,kent fo,wing lau
更了解billy,patrick,alvin和michelle(stoner)

他们啊
不错咯
这几天见了几次
也许还新鲜（感觉）
所以真的很开心

昨晚26/4
我们去SS2吹水
很不错咯
又是一班不怎么熟悉的朋友
但是也有熟悉的面孔啦
patrick,billy,alvin and wing

wing啊
对自己好一点,有自信一点
你明明就那么好看
^^

今天27/4
早上我们去巴刹
我又差点赖床了
还好前一晚被骂了
所以马上醒了
mable and alvin plus me去巴刹
特别吧
走了1hr40min的巴刹
好累哦

目的是今晚的火锅
我吓倒因为汤底竟然有一种是......肉骨茶！
另一种较正常~东炎
mabel和我负责东炎咯
而高难度的肉骨茶让给alvin咯

他盛了一锅的水然后开火后就不见人影了
滚了...
原来他累坏了在客厅睡觉
炸到！

所以我跟mabel就跟着指示煮咯
味道烂透了
可是慢慢调味就真的很好了
主要是材料不够咯！
骨头,香菇...

东炎呢
就没有辣味
加了3条6条还是没有味道
干脆下了12条....不好意思
billy觉得辣还流了汗

成功了！！！
真的很好吃
吃的很饱
planta煎肉干
一级棒
虾,还有cheese sausages很棒哦！

很可惜
肌肉在腌制过程出错
所以坏掉了
真的很可惜！

可是我有了美好的回忆
thx billy,kent,both alvins,mabel 还有一班好友
谢谢你们！

wing,i'm gonna miss u...dun be sad..^^


New friends Mable Jang and Kent Fo(Clubbing night)

KL trip

This KL trip is third time in 2 years...
The differences of third trip is i stay at another friend's house~~~ALVIN.
Well,he is a busy guy so i have to follow his schedule^^

Once i reached KL on last Thursday
i was seriously headache,unwell...
so The 1st day in KL ruined...^^
but in my expectation!!!
Went to MOE de cafe at kepong there having dinner but i jus drink 2 cups of white coffee,my dizziness ruin my appetite.

Second day,we went to One Utama to have lunch thr...
Dragon-I,well,i nvr enter this restaurant b4 becoz at penang
There's only 2 outlets...(if not mistaken 1 in Queensbay and 1 in New world Park)
i seldom go there but when i go thr sure full of ppl and mus take number to wait for table call. My characteristic which is lack of patient definitely wont line up jus to eat in Dragon-i.
After that went bac my friend's house
8.44 we departed to pub...
Firstly went to Setapak fetch his friend Wing and then went to Cheras
tot can walk night market but my dream destroyed cos of rain.
i Like nite market becos it cheaper,sell different products
ytd i saw Herbal Chic,Curry fish balls,i have never seen this in any night market
Night Market show us the unique of a place.
after the dinner in 龙门客栈,we went to BLUE
it's still early and i drink almost 6 cups of Carlsberg and i surrender
i seldom touch alcoholic drink so my body cannot afford to handle them
wanna vomit but failed
dunno how many minutes i stay in a toilet
usually i wont do it becos for me toilet is dirty...
but i already dun care this,jus stay beside it.

We had fun and i get drunk
i will improve my ability to handle alcohol so that i wont troubled my friend to take care of me anymore...^^
i sang 寂寞好了 they said i cried but i didnt
smoke make my eyes sensitive and keep pouring out the tears...
so ashamed...T.T

i am okay
i have no probe in any matters...^^
i am still the same,strong as u seen as u feel and crazy as i knw...
haha^^

End of sem 2...

Finally reach the end of sem 2...
hurrraaaayyyyyy...but quite sad becos my hostel life finally end too...
These few days,we'r not only study,we also appreciate the time we spend together^^
especially our KS group.^^u knw who i mean?haha
accounting + food tech + food service...
haha
see ya next sem ya^^

wanna go bec d,now online at Mcdonald beside the bus terminal
Feel so good^^
so full,Spicy Chicken Mcdeluxe and Chicken burger
but now i am worry that i will vomit once i enter bus
becos u knw the road from terengganu to penang?haha
worry...

This afternoon i done with the last paper...
hopeless la...
this morning 1:30am only start study
study til 4am then 9:20am start til 11:20am...
luckily i finish it but i dunno how to do leh...
so sad^^but nvm,nothing is bigger than can go bec home...^^
HAPPY

notes 41= April= holiday=happy^^

In a sudden,its april now...Near to the end of Sem 2...
Til now,left 2 more papers to go.I am so excited.Cant wait to go home^^
miss my mum,my dad and my sisters...^^
Dad,r u ok? when i knew u'r accident, i was shock.
i guess u r ok now^^
This 2 and a half weeks,i passed with jus ok...
Final but this time i am different><
more relax(No study cos tot time enuff),mus thx to who arrange the timetable la..^^
And i study all before exam^^so not worry after that^^
but As usual,i was insomnia...getting serious(Expected)
I transfer so many movies from my friends,i wanna watch til i think it was enuff for me...^^love it^^
when i go bac mus watch HOW TO TRAIN UR DRAGON and CLASH OF TITANS
i like ancient history so so much...@.@

Think of this,i am totally not in the mood of study =>
food chem and management, however,i wont give up u both...
u both also hopefully dun give up me^^
ADD 0iL!!!

40. As usual,final time..end of sem 2

As usual, reached final period...
its time to study well,but i am not into the study mood.
i Jus wanna relax,maybe sudden too free so i dun wan to move
Another point is i study within my schedule,so i am not yt nervous...
i hope this scary period will pass faster because i cant sleep well everynite...
Think of the day soon i will spend with my family,i am so happy...
Excited,because KL trip...i wanna go Ipoh also..
hopefully i have enuff budget la...
Think of the activities can i do after final
i am so not into study mood...haiz T.T
This sem i am totally hopeless because definitely no A...
i am more hardworking than last sem but wat i get in biostat?
that lecturer ruin my result!!!
I mus put more efforts in kenegaraan,Nutrition and Food chem but somehow
i do not think i can get A..jus at last A-...high carry mark among the coursemates but lose too many marks in test...hopefully,god bless me to get at least 3.5...

我不喜欢...就是讨厌

我不喜欢有些人就是不喜欢做工
永远依靠别人,然后自己落得清闲
难道他们不会内疚？
也不喜欢东西拖那么就不要做
现在没时间以后就会有时间做吗？

不喜欢某些人
明明自己是人渣还骂人
自以为自己很对！
明明就是没用的人
不要以为有钱然后读SEGI就可以乱乱攻击人
其实你还是流氓！
没家教
咒你一辈子永远就是那么一个人渣！

我就是这样！

第38章 我放掉了,我很爽

12晚
好无奈
被言语攻击
13早
连日的压力和某些事发生
令我压力很大

我哭了
真的很糗
宿舍嘛!
哪里敢放声大哭？
所以我竟然去客厅哭
哈哈
还好凌晨三点了
没有人会出来

释放了压力
好爽
我决定了
放掉回忆,放掉该放的东西

努力读书！

没了...没剩什么了...

我没了
没剩什么了

时间没了
读书天天读书
勇气没了
没了面对挑战的勇气
朋友没了
没剩多少了
当想找人诉苦时
永远是从A找到Z
然后回到A...还是不知道要找谁
朋友多,能动分享心事的没有几个

我的生活没了
生日永远在final过
没了
想念的你没了
有时还是很想你
当不小心看到时
还是会伤心...

累了
放了
不努力了
我不是不够努力
而是不够聪明
一直以为自己很厉害
到头来
原来是个没用的人

if...i wanna leave here awhile...

if i have money to spend now
i sure will leave here for while..
i am reali stressful at here,becos of my study T.T
i set a higher target for myself so that i can try to at least maintain my result
but it seems that i'm gonna failed to achieve it...
its reali so stressful.

Every time,i tell myself that it jus a simple test or wat...
it doesn't mean anything if i overstress myself
i should enjoy my life at here..

but i reali cant do it...

i dun wan other look down at me...
thats y i try to hard to study...

Sometimes i think that i'm gonna give up all the things...
but i knw after i bec from a trip i'm gonna stress bec cos many things havent done..

now...
i have no right to complain anythings...
i jus wanna my study mood come back to me plz...
so that i can study everyday...

study books by books,notes by notes...
i cant tell u that i'm well-prepared becos i knw i wont...
but at least i've tried my best...

i wanna do the best of the best...^^

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友情？爱情？亲情？

友情？朋友？
总觉得是互相利用的...
虽然有时感受到真挚的友情
可是就在那一瞬间
过后消失的无影无踪T.T

我时常说的
我的生活不是为别人而活
所以就算跟别人吵架
我也无所谓!
可是有时我真的很介意
会很痛心...
因为我是很在意任何一位朋友的
我尽力对他们好
换来的不懂是什么？

爱情
是个很玄的东西
靠着不懂的感觉就在一起了
完全没理由
就算你说你有多相爱
我也不信
因为你们会有自私的一面

我已经不是第一次拍拖了
次数越多
反而不明白是为了什么而在一起
爱情是什么？
i want to knw wat love is...
我想知道
我想在我懂前保持单身

爱情是游戏吗？
好像是又好像不是...

亲情
小时不曾会想选的
可是大了我选择这个
因为他们对我最好
最佳的鼓励
最佳的温暖
最佳的避风港
都是我的家人给我的

好想念我妈妈煮的食物
以前常常嫌弃的食物
其实是最好吃的...

我从来不肯说我爱你们
因为我是男生
我想给你们拥抱
可是习惯了假装坚强
但是其实我没那么坚强

可是
唯一肯定的是
我爱你们~

我真得受伤了

新年过了
我累了,偏体鳞伤
生病了...
没感受到被关心
我被遗弃了？
也许吧...可是不是啊！就是我想要关心我的人永远不理我

我伤得很重,我已经没有力气承受了
你们伤得我很重
我没有选择除了放手
我只想慢慢复原
然后不理了
上个月到这个月总计5~7个人不跟我做朋友了
有些是我自己的选择
因为我很辛苦
你们很虚伪！
为什么要一直骗我？

所谓的没开始何来结束？
这句话很伤
我接受了
因为你不会重视我
我一定可以好好的活下去

深呼吸继续走下去
我能的...

final要到了
不要玩玩了
因为我没机会倒
还不是时候跌倒
我狠狠撑着

因为我希望看到明天美丽的彩虹...

新年Chinese new year

这个新年很莫名其妙
这样就过了初三
真的很不懂

也许我真的很压力
一直想着功课
20年第一次过新年那么辛苦

要读书赶功课
我真的不想读了

这种生活才刚开始
我都忍不下去了

我想开开心心的过新年
可以吗？
功课滚远点...可以吗？

生活...没那么简单

没那麽简单 就能找到 聊得来的伴
尤其是在 看过了那麽多的背叛
总是不安 只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫

没那麽简单 就能去爱 别的全不看
变得实际 也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单 一久也习惯
不用担心谁 也不用被谁管

感觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话 随便听一听 自己做决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上 关上了手机 舒服窝在沙发里

相爱没有那麽容易 每个人有他的脾气
过了爱做梦的年纪 轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那麽容易 才会特别让人着迷
什麽都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心 所以最开心 曾经

想念最伤心 但却最动心 的记忆

真得好累

累了
想休息
兼顾多边的东西...
每天忙碌过着没感情没心情的生活
感觉自己好像活死人

感觉像走在荒凉的街头
拿着雨伞
躲避人群
人们忙东忙西
忽略我的存在

孤单走着
没目的的向前走
寻找着我要的世界

孤单的世界？
还是多姿多彩吗？

只是想被关心
然后电话关上
远离人群
好好睡觉...

有人说
忙碌是感情的退烧药
但是
忙碌后的空闲
绝对是艰难的日子
反复回想

不想见到某些人
可是几乎天天见

孤单的过生活
安静的
低调的

我不想理了
因为我累了

以后的我

以后的我
会更成熟,安静不讲话
因为是是非非总在我身边围绕

以后的我
不需要别人
因为我是独立个体

长大了
我的心
溃烂了
不再相信真心的朋友
不会故意去参任何人

因为我不再需要...

曾经太年轻

@最近爱上了
情歌
不过是伤心情歌@

~今晚你想念的人是不是我
~对的人
~累格
~背对背拥抱
~need u now
~when you're gone
~曾经太年轻~

窗外风铃一直不安静
风在摇晃不安的宿命
我聆听
你回忆经过的声音
开始旅行寂寞很清醒
我在靠近过去的边境
有些恋人只是
路过时的风景
曾经太过年轻却绝对真心
我给的爱始终任性
不懂花开只一次的爱情
曾经太过年轻
泪纯真透明
你的坚定
我仍然还
相信
直到如今你说爱的那封信
我一直都收藏着
折叠用心
让誓言干净
曾经太过年轻
在人海飘零
那些关于我的事情
总有你紧紧跟随的身影
曾经太过年轻
泪纯真透明
你的坚定
我仍然还...相信

听着听着竟然哭了
为了什么
我不懂
因为我就是那么感性

‘爱要耐心等待
仔细寻找感觉很重要’

一句一句歌词唱进我的心
好痛好悲好苦

不过我觉得那是好事
因为我是有感情的

我不是不会伤心
而是不能,没时间...
渐渐忘记很容易
慢慢放下不简单

时间
带给我快乐吧!

我想回槟城

this sem is a crazy sem....
i still cant get used to it yt...
everyday rush this and that
tests non stop...assignment also~

i dunno wat can i do other than complain and still continue it...
i will be busy busy busy til 2013...great!!!

我想回槟城

this sem is a crazy sem....
i still cant get used to it yt...
everyday rush this and that
tests non stop...assignment also~

i dunno wat can i do other than complain and still continue it...
i will be busy busy busy til 2013...great!!!

my old friend~faiz

hey..i knw u cant understand chinese...
so i wrote a message for u in english...
hope u read this when next time u view my blog!

how r u?
its been a long time we didnt contact
by the way,what r u doin now?
still study?
i still miss the time when i study at SMKBM...
haha

~kyo~

1/1/2010...new year...

昨晚在facebook倒数...
特别.原来我不是一个人哦！
happy new year again...

其实我知道1/1不会是个好日子
因为前几年的今天我发生车祸
今天因为昨天的试验要等二十四小时才可以拿result
所以我们一班华人都在宿舍准备出发

由于下很大的雨
所以我们要坐van sapu去咯
可是他们竟然不要载我们
拖到10:35我们决定走路去

下雨啊！折裤子上来防湿,又不能穿拖鞋
因为实验室的规则...
鞋子进水啊！

由于我们走得很慢
所以我朋友在一个转弯要到实验室时
她喊了一声

结果就看到很多马来coursemates...
他们说实验室昨晚停电所以我们不能拿result...

气死人
湿了鞋子,裤子
竟然什么都拿不到
...

1/1有够倒霉的...haiz